Missing My Mom
I can’t believe it has been five years today that I lost the best woman I have ever known. It always weighes heavy on my mind what I have lost, but on the anniversary it really tugs at my heart because I am reminded on this dreaded date every year of what has been lost. I find myself thinking every year will get easier, but my heart aches for the relationship I had with her. I was 29 years old when I lost her with a 2 year daughter and a 3 month old son. I couldn’t understand why she would be taken away from me when I needed her guidance to help me raise my children. I needed her so much. I still do. I changed that day. I wasn’t the same person walking out of that hospital without her. I thought of all the times I took for granted when I could have just picked up the phone to talk to her or get in my car and go to her house to see her. I couldn’t imagine that I couldn’t do that anymore. It makes me so sad that my children will never know the grandmother they could have had. I know they would adore her as much as I did. I miss her terribly and I can remember one of the things people would say to me shortly after it happened was “She is in a much better place”. I remember thinking, I know she is but, her daughters and sons and grandchildren need her. I know we were being selfish. But, we couldn’t imagine living our life without her. It took me a long time to get to a place when I did realize she was where she needed to be. And like the song goes…If anyone deserved a ticket to the other side….it was her. So, as this dreadful day comes and goes every year, I realize she is in a better place. I miss her so much and know one day that I will get to hug her and see her sweet face again. I believe……
Couple of my Faves!!!
Yes….I am still going through and backing up photos on my computer and came across these and I must admit they are a few of my favorite photos I think I have taken! Why? Because I didn’t stage these AT ALL! The first one is of Nick and his BFF Brady (also known as his cousin) at a football game standing at the fence watching! The second photo is of Nick and Brooks sitting in front of the fire in the backyard last summer! I LOVE IT! They are extremely close and Nick idolizes his big brother! Brooks is 11 years older than Nick, but you would never know it! And the last photos was taken when we took the kids to the Fountains and Nick and Brady just randomly put their arms around each other and started walking! They adore one another and hopefully it will stay that way! I thought I would post these because I don’t think I have before! Hope everyone has a great Fr
Emma’s StoryBoard
I have been going through photos on my computer and backing everything up and found these and fell in love with them! I absolutely love B&W photos! So, I thought I would post them and I hope everyone likes my new blog! I love it so far! I hope everyone is having a great week so far! Until next time……
Snow Day!!!
